Most of
the time I have found myself not reading the word of God not because I am busy,
but I can’t explain it. I can find
myself comfortably doing other things, like listening to music, twitting,
facebooking, but when it comes to reading the word I just feel lazy and
tired. Have you felt this way?
Well,
I need your help. You might think am
joking, but I am not joking. I guess
this is an attack from the evil one because deep down my heart I really want to
have a fellowship with my Lord daily, but I just find myself just not reading
the Word. I have even tried to do it in
the evening when going to sleep since I thought there are no interruptions that
time, I may concentrate. My friend, I
end up watching a movie or sleep with immediate effect. Why now?
I guess I have given all my time to the things of this world and I need
prayers seriously because I am really missing out my fellowship with
Christ. It does not feel nice at all not
to have a fellowship with him on daily basis.
When I compare myself to when I have adhered to reading my Bible,
Praying and Fasting and now that I am this dry, I feel down. No wonder the devil can minister to me in such
a time with all these lies that I am good for nothing. I am good at praying even when doing my work,
walking around, in the bathroom e.t.c. I
may not do a long prayer but as short as it is, I feel I have spoken to my
God. But that is not enough because I am
not consistence in reading the Word.
If
there is anyone out there who has a secret to this, I will embrace it. What makes me not be consistent in reading
the Word? I know I am a sanguine and
sanguine are too good in talking and the like and they are not consistent as
far as I know, but I guess I need discipline in regard to reading the Word. I wish I had a mentor or a friend that can
keep checks with me in relation to this.
I once had a friend that I met on the net and what drew me to him was
the power of reading the word and fasting.
He kept me on toes and I tell you the truth I was reading the word on
daily basis and I also managed to fast at least once in a week because we kept
on encouraging each other. That plan
just died like that and I wish I could get a friend that can stand with me and
keep me in checks on daily basis. This
will help me a great deal. I know my
Lord is hearing my prayer because I have struggled for some time now. But, I am not giving up yet because even in
church as my pastor encourages me that I need a reset to my life, sincerely I
need a reset and I can’t wait on the directions he will give to enable me tap
this blessing. Who knows why God put in
his spirit to preach this (a reset of my life in Christ) such a time because
someone like me needs help! Lord have
mercy on me.
Now
that I have shared part of my weakness, I know I will share more and more. But you may wonder so what? So, that I can overcome this weakness that is
why I put it here for the world to know that it is a weakness that is eating me
and so many others that is why we are not growing spiritually. In the recent past I have been invaded with a
fear that is too terrible. I thought I
was past fear but I am shocked at how my storms can bring about fear in my life
just because they were too strong that I could not imagine I will be out of
them. Thanks be to God I am out. But I am struggling with fear. Fear for even what am not supposed to
fear. This means there is a void in my
life that is not filled with God because fear is from the devil and not
God!
Let
me encourage you my dear friend. You
might be in my shoes and you do not know what to do. Please join a church and have a fellowship
with others so that you can get help. I
have tried to depend on my own understanding but I have realized most of the
time I cannot help myself! I need others
in order to grow and to sustain my salvation.
I know it is not an easy step but we are supposed to be accountable to
each other on basis of truth and trust as we continue fellow-shipping with
others. I will also say you do not just
start fellowship with every Tom, Dick and Hurry, but chose your friends wisely
because even in church we have people who are not to be trusted. Have a fellowship with them in many
activities that are in church and in that way you can be able to choose
wisely. So far I have not found one
friend that I can open up and share deeply as I wish, but I know God will give
me a friend to walk with me.
I
like writing about myself here so that, those who have the same encounters as
mine can be encouraged and I also help them overcome them through my sharing and
testimonies. God bless you and have a fruitful time as you plan to reset your life
in Christ. Amen!
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ReplyDeleteif i gave you my story on this subject u'd think am copy pasting your thoughts.we need checks and balances and like any solid company,u must not check and balance yourself,you need others who tell you on a global perspective what they think you are doing wrong. its very hard to see yourself not doing the right thing.hence the auditors.in a christian perspective,we need to fellowship.we really really need to fellowship.in that way when we fall we get each other up.and God gets all of us up.God bless you.
ReplyDeleteThank you Joshua! You do not know what you are doing to me when you respond this way. As in there is someone out there who is feeling me? Hey! You are a divine connection. My meeting you is a testimony and a prayer answered. As you read, you saw i confessed that i do not have that friend that can walk with me, but here you are! God is not a liar, he hears our prayers. You are one of the friends that he has given me and you know what, i am ready to walk with you and keep the checks and balances for me coz i need people like you to be around me and i am not ashamed to call you my good friend coz you really are! God bless you and keep you!
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