Every time you see a swelling in
your body and you have no clue what it is, please do not hesitate to go to the
hospital to seek for the doctor’s advice. Most of the time we suffer silently
not because we need to suffer, but simply because of ignorance. My Thyroid
Nodule stayed in my body for more than 7 years just because i was in denial and
i did not want the doctor to tell me it was anywhere near cancer. Of-course no
wants any cancer to be near them, but this is a reality that is with us. As
painful as it is, it is good to prevent, than to cure. As i said, my journey to
go to the doctor to ascertain to me, what the swelling was all about, it is
through a friend who told me, as in rebuking me, that i should not ignore the
swell on my neck. To me it was a wake-up call that i did not want to hear
about, as i did not want to hear the worst. This friend of mine, Mary, told me
in a way that it was harsh so that i can take things seriously because she did
not pamper me or sugar coat it. She told me, "You have to see a doctor
because some things are cancer connected"
To be honest, her words to me were
so harsh and i thought she does not wish me well. I hated her for some time
until the Lord spoke to me one time and asked me if i took Mary's words
seriously or i ignored them. I was very sincere with God and told him, actually
not only did i hear what she said, but i hate her with passion. And our God
is so faithful, kind and merciful; he did not judge me or punish me for my
hard heart. He just reasoned with me and told me, "Mary wishes you
well. Actually i used her to signal to you that the swelling is not a normal
thing". Immediately i turned to God and asked him to forgive me. And i
asked him to help me then face my storm. The Lord is so faithful that he guided
me throughout the process and at some point when i was in the hospital after i
was operated on, i thanked God for the successful surgery and i took my phone
and called Mary. I confessed to her that i had sinned against her and i would
want her to forgive me, because after she broke to me the news about the
nodule, i did not take it kindly. I told her that i was calling her to thank
her for being my point of connection to the reality that, if I continued
ignoring about the Thyroid Nodule, then it would have turned out to be a
disaster in the future because, the doctor told me, such swellings usually turn
out to be cancerous.
Her confrontation helped me take a
positive and bold step to see a doctor and not to ignore any more. As i write
this, i am still in the healing process after a very miraculous surgery that is
a story to tell because i never had any cash to go to the hospital, but the
Lord came for me, money was provided miraculously and many debts that weighed
me down, i was able to pay. And since, God has been very faithful.
I thank God also for my son Collins
Munene because, he is the only one who understands what i have been going
through. I cannot count even the responsibility he has to wake up every morning
and prepare his small brother to go to school in the morning while i sleep
because when i wake up so early in the morning i cough so much to a point that
i cannot go to work. He has religiously done this for some time now, before and
after my operation so that by the time i wake up, he has prepared my bathing
water so that i get in the bathroom and shower very fast before the cold starts
affecting me, and make the breakfast so that immediately i am from the bathroom
i take it warm to give my body warmth. The responsibility my son has such a
time, it is only a husband that can do, but I thank God, he has put my son in
that gap to be there for me in time of need such a time. Not forgetting now, he
is like a house girl. So, when someone judges my son so harshly and
calling him names that does not soot him, I wish they could be in his shoes.
Instead they could be crowning him as a hero. Taking care of her mum, the
brother takes a man to be there for his family, and that takes God. Collins is
a man enough and i thank God that such a time when even i cannot afford to pay
a house girl, he is there for me. I won’t mention other things that he is doing
that will touch people’s hearts, because my intention is not to be pitied but to
just help people understand where we are coming from and where we are going and
tell that, God is giving us a testimony to help you one day or even as I talk
because, to me this is a testimony.
The main agenda in my writing this
note is not about my son, but it is a wake-up call to us all that, WHEN YOU
SEE A SWELLING IN YOUR BODY, DO NOT IGNORE IT BUT SEEK FOR MEDICAL ATTENTION!
I thank God because he loves us just the way we are. I thank God for the storms
that he has passed me through because it is through them that he has made me
this strong, dependent of him and very hopeful that he will one day vindicate
me, make me victorious and i will be a living prove (Testimony) that God is so
faithful, he can never give you a storm that you cannot bear. He is also very
faithful, that, even if you are tempted, he will give you a way to overcome it.
Today, i want to thank God for helping me make that hard choice, to obey him
even at a time i did not want to, because he wanted good for me and not harm.
As i continue with the journey of full recovery because healing is a process. I
give God all the glory and my prayer is that he will reward my son one day and
crown him a King in all that he does for his glory. Amen!
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