ARE YOU HURTING? IMAGINE STOP AND LET GO!

I have been yearning to get something to write since it has taken sometime since I lastly wrote on my blog.  I always feel I have something to write but I am happy to say, this morning the Lord gave me something to write about, not what I wanted to write but what He wanted me to write.  Most of the time when am writing here,  it is something that is deep from my heart and I know that is what is of God because He prepares me to write about it and thus I feel now the psyche to sit down and take my sweet time to write.  I thank God for this good friend he has divinely connected me to Rev. Steven A. Knotts.  He is a friend that I have not met but he has been my encouragement to my life I have his link I can share with you my good reader, he can be of help to you through his ministry (www.basicessentials.org).   Most of the time when I come to my blog I find that it has been viewed by so many people.  One may have visited more than once may be that is how they look many I do not know, but the one who has assigned me this hidden ministry knows me and why he is using me in this secret place to minister to all these people because GOD loves them too.  He has made me go through all what I have gone through and given me this opportunity to write what is in my heart as a way of helping my good friends and readers. 

I thank God for you all who read my blog.  If you really want to contact me you can use my email address rosegatobu@yahoo.com.   Kindly just introduce yourself how you met me and ask any question you want to ask I will be able to walk with you.

Today in the morning (18.07.2013), when I was coming to the office, I really wanted to write and I asked God, you have taught me something this week that I would want to share with the world and especially those who are going through what I am going through.  I felt very excited and I wanted to go straight  to my writing but I kept feeling like going to check my mails because I was expecting a mail from this good friend of mine that God connected me with sometime back but had lost contact with him.  Something funny one day I was looking for an address for a site that I had registered with one time in relation to relationships so that I can start all over again and get a friend so that it can end up in marriage.  In the process I got the contact of this friend of mine who was so good to me that time and he gave me a lot of encouragement.  I remembered exactly the seed he planted in my heart that time.  I may have not taken him that seriously that time because I had just bumped on him on the net one time I was looking for the word of God to get some encouragement.  And he gave me his site and email address that I used to share with him. But I got so busy with my things and I was overwhelmed with what I was going through and lost contact with him.  So this particular day, I met his address and I rekindled the friendship by sending him a mail.  It was such an amazing response, that he still remembers me and cares about me only that I had taken time to talk to him because in his settings all those who do not communicate in around 90 days automatically you are deleted from system because he ministers to hundreds and hundreds of people and I can imagine it can be cumbersome.   But I am so excited that even when you are automatically deleted from the system that has already been set, God will always make a way where there seems to be no way.  Emails keep all the records as long as they are not deleted and information is always there you can have all the contacts you had since you got them and this is how I was able to retrieve the contact of my friend Rev. Steven A. Knotts.  Whom I thank God for, because he has been my source of encouragement guess what?  He also reads my blog and encourages me to continue writing as I hear from God.  He has affirmed me that I am doing a good job because I rarely get comments from my blog.  Now I know I may look like am doing nothing, but I am impacting so much in the unseen world.  Thank you man of God for this word of encouragement!    

I have wanted my Pastor to have that passion of hearing my story and walking with me and I am amazed of how he can use his Servant all the way in South Africa someone I have never met to really feel me and walk with me.  I am excited about Brother Steve because that is a ministry right there.  And guess what? Before I decided to do my writing today, I checked my mail and there was his mail that was so timely and encouraging that gave me the stamina to write this article today.  This friend of mine was in my shoes one time and God used him to go through all what he went through so that one day he can be my source of encouragement and stand with me by showing me that all is not lost.  When you walk with Christ he will always be there for you and connect you to the right people who will take you to your next level in your healing, freedom and other things.  It does not matter who he will use, he is a faithful God.  Friends welcome today to my sharing about “Are you hurting?  Imagine stop and let it go!”

In the past like one month I have been wanting to meet someone who really hurt me because I thought if I meet this person, I will get my healing and be able to forgive fully.  I have come to realize as much as I wanted to meet this person to reconcile and hear from his mouth why he hurt me this deep, the devil is also listening and would be want to be part of it so that he can take advantage of his manipulative ways to put me down in the essence that I am looking for peace and healing but he also knows my weakness.  But I thank God now I have known where my weakness was and he can’t capture me but see my back.   

I have also come to realize, as I have the mind of God that we should forgive each other and live in peace, the devil will also want to get his share if you are friends.  In this case I mean if he knows you can compromise and he takes advantage of you. I have come to realize as I sought for this friend of mine because I felt bad every time I remembered him and I really wished him bad because I could imagine the pain that he brought in my life during the time he hurt me.  In the process I have learnt, this person is not the problem but I am in the problem.  I know I will shock you when I say this.  I am saying this because as much as am saying this person hurt me, I guess they do not feel it at all because if they felt it, they would be on their knees asking God to forgive them and look for me seriously to seek forgiveness from me and not vice versa.  That is because they hurt me.  It sounds funny but I know many people are there. 

Today from my sharing, I know I will speak to many people who are hurting and wishing those who hurt them would face the music and pay the price as I have been wishing about this friend of mine.  Let me tell you, you might be writhing in pain waiting for the time they will be announced that they are going through a difficult time so that you celebrate.  But I will ask you, when you wish them that bad as I am wishing for my friend what will you gain out of it?  Will you recover the pain and the trauma that you have gone through from the pain implicated by this person?  My answer will be NO!  (Remember I am also preaching to myself am not an exceptional here)  Because the problem is not the person but you!  Gosh you are asking where is your problem.  I will share my revelation in regards to this hurt so that you will understand why it was my problem.  Most of the time when we have a weakness it will always attract the evil one to take advantage of you in one way or another.  Surely if I saw it coming in the first place I would not have let this person hurt me this deep.  He hurt me so deep because I allowed him to hurt me this deep.  How?  I had seen so many red flags but I ignored them just because I wanted him to be my life partner forgetting there are basics.  This article showed the red flags right there.  I guess the person who wrote this had me in mind because this is exactly what I went through and it is painful.    “Stop calling someone who never picks up or takes forever to call you back because such a person lacks common courtesy, such a person may be in love with someone else or simply using you at his or her convenience.  Stop texting a person who doesn’t reply in a reasonable amount of time.  I know that person may be claiming that he or she is ever busy but if that person really loved you he/she wouldn’t have failed to spare at least 2 minutes to text you and short message like I MISS YOU, I LOVE YOU… If you are in love with such a person just know he/she has not time for you but has time to text the other person that he or she loves and fears to piss and lose.  Stop chasing after someone who doesn’t want to be caught.  Stop caring for someone who doesn’t appreciate everything you do for him or her.  Stop having hope in someone who takes you as his or her second option. I mean that person who is ever interested in you when he or she is sad, bored or stressed.  Stop pleading and crying for someone who sees no value in your tears.  Seriously you deserve someone who gladly picks up when you call with much need of hearing his or her voice, someone who replies promptly to your texts and treats you with common decency, someone who appreciates everything you do for him or her, someone who fears to lose you just like the way you do, someone who takes you as his or her priority, someone who has your time and serious with you”

I wish I had read this article before I put myself in this shit of being hurt.  May be it would have helped me because by that time I was not doing the will of God. If I did, then God could not have allowed me be in such a fiasco.  If I was doing things according to the Will of God things would not have gone the way they went.  I would have been rescued from the wrath of being hurt this deep.  What am I saying?  When you leave basic requirements for you as a child of God in relation to friendship that leads to marriage, then you have or you MUST do what God wants you to do.  That is, let the person also be born again like you, do not engage in sex before marriage, let your family know this person, know his background and his believes and the list goes on and on I need not want to go in details because we have been taught these things but we just ignore and do things our way instead of God’s way.   I learnt my lesson through the hardest way from this hurt of mine that I am talking about but out of it I have learnt exactly what God wanted me to learn because my next relationship will be based on the basics that I have ignored for the last like sixteen years.

 

Let me help you out my dear friend.  I would want to really share about the story which is so touching , but this is very personal I can’t really tell the story here on my blog but I will be writing my book about many things that I have gone through so that you hear and feel me.  I have learnt that, God wants good for me and he can never wish me bad.  I may go out of His way and make the wrong choices but let me tell you, God does not leave you there when you cry unto him and tell him you are sorry he will always restore you.  Sometimes we get so deep into things that cause us even depression but God allows you to go through that so that you can understand two things, He is always there for you no matter what, and you will have to go through the pain so that you do not go back to sinning again!  Am I speaking to someone?  Remember even the person hurting you is also going through his battles because he is not safe either.  He makes wrong choices by choosing the wrong person in the process of hurting you or he chooses the right person but has to pay a price by learning his lessons too the hardest way! When he/she gets the wrong person that is the time he/she will realize imagine I made a mistake I would have gone for this person I let go and hurt this deep.  But it is usually very late because already you got married and you made the vow.  If you are born again and  you are the person who hurt you will turn to God and He will correct the anomaly in the best way he knows because he knew where he would catch you at and deal with you.  But if you do not know Christ, then you will go on hurting others and the circle will continue.  But the day the Lord will deal with you, you will come running to him in surrender or else you will take a rope and hang yourself and go straight to hell.    What, am I saying?  Most of the time we go carrying those who hurt us and forget that we should let it go and move on and learn our lessons in that awful manner.  If someone has left you for someone else, understand they were never meant for you and God has the one he has in mind for you because there is no way you can treat someone good and do all what good you are doing and that person cannot see.  That person must be demon possessed.  And you who allow to be hurt this deep also have a big problem too especially if you are a child of God. It means that the Lord is dealing with your weakness that he is preparing you for his kingdom and for you to get your right partner because the day he will give you that man who really loves you, you will never take that person for granted.  You will understand it is GOD who gave you this best friend and the love of your heart!

Be blessed and I will recommend a book that I am reading by T.D Jakes “let it go”.  This book will amaze you on how you can forgive and let it go and stop hurting.  You will get your healing instantly when you understand that you should forgive in order to be forgiven. 

I may not have written so much to make you get the point but I know I have spoken to your heart. I am dealing with the hurt and forgiveness at the moment and I know my sharing will help you too.  You do not need to sit down and wine on your weakness.  I always wonder, why did I have to be hurt this deep?  I need not to be hurt this much.  But I have understood where I went wrong and am correcting that anomaly by doing my basics and depending on God and not compromising to the people who hurts me.  God bless you and have a wonderful time!

DEPENDING ON GOD FULLY!

Sometimes listening to the voice of God is usually very hard.  Some instructions he gives us they look so weird and we wonder if that was truly God speaking or someone else.  In the recent past I have been desiring to know God more and to go deeper with His things than I was doing before.  I thank God I am winning some of my battles that have hindered me go to my next level.  I have been stagnant for long and that has always disturbed me.  But from my storms, I always learn one or two things about what God wants me to do from that storm.  My latest storm has made me learn that I should always depend on God always or fully. He has also taught me to learn to be patient and wait for him to do his will.  This has not been very easy with me because of lack of patience!

Where do you place your God?  Do you just remember him when you are in need?   But when you are enjoying yourself you forget the same God who has been fighting your battles and thus that is why you are enjoying your life?  You hear others complaining and murmuring how things are not going well on their side and you wonder which God do they pray?  Thank God that you are doing that well and you are really enjoying yourself, but I hope down deep down your Heart you fully depend on God so that when the storm comes and you lack the peace and joy you are enjoying you will be able to overcome because a time will come when you will face a storm that will shake you to remind you that you fully belong to God and you will always depend on him.  I am not scaring anyone here but I am trying to encourage myself that storms will never seize to be, but I will always overcome them if I will be with my Lord.  When you are alone or when he is far away the storm seems to be too big to handle because of where we place our God. 

Why am I saying this?  Last week, I was called to play a part in something that a friend of mine was trusting God for.  To be honest I also heard God and I really put all my efforts in all manner to see the person succeed not putting aside money input.  And I remember I kept on praying and seeing this thing coming out positively and all will be well with us all who were involved. 

It was not a very easy thing to do especially with people of our caliber, but we really worked hard all of us to make this thing work out for us because if it did, things would have turned around for us and the world would have been left agape!  But guess what, things did not turn our way and our hearts sank.  But something funny even as our hearts sunk, we did not believe that things have not gone our way.  It was hard, bearing in mind we had really done all what it took to get it and my friend missed it just because of something that the panelist  did not know about him but just judged without consulting him for clarification.  They took it to be a lie and they did not even want explanation for the clarification but rather shunned him and put him off just like a pauper and little do they know that he is a child of God and God will work it out for him.  It was not an easy take to have lost but we know, it is not over with us.  God has a better thing for us and we will focus on him and not what we have lost.

In the course of my asking what went wrong, I wondered, God! what didn’t we do right?  What did we do wrong?  But I have kept on telling myself that I should always depend on him not on the things I really want to go my way.  I have realized God will allow us not to get what we really want even when we have sacrificed a lot to achieve it.  He will allow us to go through out the pain of losing it so that we can focus on him.  In this sense, we should love our God at all times, when we get what we really want and when we fail to get it.  This is very challenging because as human beings, most of time when we do not get it, we start blaming God, telling him that he does not really love us, pitying ourselves and seeing as if God has a grudge with us.  NO!  God wants you to depend on him.   He has a better thing for you than what you are running for.  Remember it is only God who knows everything.  Us, we get to know when we face it or see it.  That is us because we are human.  If we knew when we grow up and go to school get our masters and still be at home with no job, you will never go to that school, after all, all that will go to a waste because you know you will not have a job.  That is why we all struggle but we do not know the end of it all but God knows.  It is through this entire journey we understand so many things and we are made stronger with the storms that we face in order to move on and be what the Lord wants us to be.

In my case that I referred here, we, all lost and not little loss because it was something so special to us all because we knew, if he went through all of us would be celebrating.   But still even in our loss, we will always trust our Lord.   I know I might be sounding very simple with this statement because as you read you are saying, ‘Rose you do not know what you are talking about.  Mine is a very bad story and I wish you understand'.  I will tell you, God will never allow you to go through something that he knows you cannot overcome. You might fail to that temptation and feel like this is it and you do not know how you will start all over again to be where you are and I will tell you, God will give you the Grace.  Do not give up.  Just wake up and dust yourself and give yourself courage you will start all over again.  You might be on your 15^th breakup story as in you have lost 15 very good opportunities to get married, and you are not clocking 12 years but you are heading to your 40 years and above, with children out of wedlock and so forth and on,  I will still tell you do not give up!  You are this girl you have wasted yourself all this time and you are wondering on earth who is this man who will just understand me and take me in and give me another chance and I will prove to them that I am changed and different?  You are this guy who as gone on hurting women all over and you now want to settle down and you are asking can God really forgive me and give me this beautiful woman to be my wife and I live happy ever after?  There are so many questions that we are asking ourselves and I am not an exceptional.  I will encourage you and tell you, depend on God and you will not go wrong. 

You are born again and failed not once not twice and you are wondering how can I reach to that level?  I will tell you put pride aside and repent and tell God to help you once again and start it all over again.  Love on him and ask him to direct you.  Tell him you now understand where you went wrong and you are ready to correct that and move on.  That is the best place to be and now look for trusted friends who can walk with you because you can’t be accountable to yourself, you need others to watch over you and let them walk with you. I mean you should look for trusted friends who love God and they will not judge you but walk with you. 

My take today is to thank God for all what has failed on my side and continue trusting in him and not to give up.  I am waiting for my miracle because I know God has placed something good for me, it’s just a matter of time which is always his that I should wait.   What I am crying for now is to have peace and patience because these are the things I lack most of the time when I really want something and I know He is faithful he will grant me the desires of my heart if I depend on him and trust him fully.  When the time comes, he will have worked out my impatience!

God bless you and be encouraged and know that God is there and He knows you just the way you are! 

Love you all!  Amen!

THAT NIGHT, THE KING COULD NOT SLEEP: ESTHER 6:1

I am very excited as I write this because my Lord reigns.  I have realized when you surrender to your Lord and you rekindle your love for him, He will always speak to you in so many ways just like before or when he started with you.   I am excited because, when I came in the office in the morning, (22^nd May 2013), I had issues that I had to sort out there out and I needed first to report and ask for permission to go out and take care of my errands.  Well, I missed out reading the Word as my usual when I come to the office, but I was in spirit because I was praying since I boarded the Matatu to the office. 

I arrived to the office and asked for permission to go out.  I was granted to go and attend to my issues.  But as I went out I was still interceding and I was enjoying my fellowship with my Lord even on the road.  I hope I was not shocking those who met with me because I was smiling aimlessly enjoying the fellowship I had with my Lord and I really enjoyed it as I walked by.  When I arrived where I was going, I had to stop the fellowship and embark seriously on my issues and somehow I was helped half way and went back to the office.  I could not stop interceding on my way back again and I felt in my spirit I need to read the word so that I crown it all when I reach the office.  Before I read the word I visited my face book page (social network) and met a servant of God who had said hi to me and I replied.  In my reply I asked him to share with me a word because I was thirsty to hear a word from the Lord.  He did not reply I guess he had not seen it, but as I went on scrolling my time line comments, I found my pastor had written this on his time line (wall).

(The most profound words in the book of Esther for me are in 6:2, 'that night, the king could not sleep'.

As the enemy Haman plotted to destroy Mordecai, God gave the king a bout of divinely inspired insomnia, which moved him to fondly remember how Mordecai had saved his life and determine to reward him. Enter Haman, with his deadly plan to frame Mordecai. To his horror, the king conscripted him there and then to run before Mordecai and honor him!

Lord, I pray that you will give important people insomnia on my behalf and on behalf of the mission you have called me to. I pray that you will frustrate ALL the enemy's plans against me and turn all evil intended against me around for my good today and in days to come. AMEN.)

As usual, I liked it and made my comment as this: - Amen! Also claim the same favour Pastor M. May the Lord bless you for sharing coz i have also tapped my blessing and claiming it in Jesus Name!

Immediately I did this I started praying and told God, “now that you have given me a word through my Pastor, let me read the entire Chapter 6 of the Book of Esther so that I hear more profoundly from you today”.  I embarked on reading Esther chapter 6.  It was so sweet to read and the Lord spoke to me.  I did not stop there I read up to Chapter 7 but before I finished reading I got a call that I had to attend to and guess what?, the Lord confirmed to me the word that someone did not have sleep just thinking of an issue that disturbed him and he had to contact me and make a follow up with me.  Something I had ignored about and thought it was a waste of time, but the Lord confirmed to me that he was involved in it so I should not ignore but take heed and take the instructions with immediate effect.  Well, after finishing with the phone, I called those I had to call on the same issue and I found a breakthrough pap.  I was overwhelmed on how my Lord works!  He is such a good Lord and very faithful.  After I finished all the dealings, as pertains the call I went back to the Bible and continued reading Esther 6 and 7.  I was really excited because the story was so sweet to read.  It answered most of my questions and things that I was having a problem with in the recent past. 

I was happy for what the Lord did to King Xerxes that night that he could not sleep.  I actually realized the verse that said the King could not sleep was Esther 6:1. (That night the king could not sleep ;)  Guess what? When the king did not sleep he decided instead of wasting his time thinking about things that do not add value he decided to ask for the book of Chronicles the record of his reign to be brought in and read to him.  Just imagine he found that Mordecai had done something good in the past that saved his life and he had never been rewarded.    

This excited me so much because it brought vivid some things in my life that I have done and wondered who will ever recognize them?  I realized that God keeps a record of everything that I do well and as much as I have not been rewarded, He has them in record and one day I will reap from my goodness.  I should never tire to do well/good or feel discouraged because I have been discouraged so much in this area.  Most of the time I am good to people but I end up getting so hurt. Ehe!  What else? Well, I will continue exciting you on my insight about this story and tell you, remember King Xerces did not know Mordecai in person.   But because of what was put in record sometime back, that he saved his life was kept in record for future reference. Heheheheh! this sounds so sweet for me.  Remember God knew what he was doing when Mordecai was not rewarded that time.  When I look at the story of Mordecai, I asked God why he couldn’t be rewarded that time when he did this good.  And the Lord reminded me that he had not finished with Mordecai and wanted to bless him at his own appointed time.  He had first to deal with him and his issues so that he can use him at his time which was in the future.  Remember God can be dealing with you in good and in bad.  When I look at Mordecai I do not think he was enjoying life where he was at the Kings gate.  So, meaning he was in his low moments, but was still waiting upon God.  Meaning that we should thank God when we are doing well and when we are not doing well.  I guess Mordecai used to pray and God heard is cry.  That is why God was doing all these behind the curtains since nobody knows what God is doing until we see the manifestation.  You might be going through storms, but even in the storm the Lord is working it out for you.  The storms will not finish you, but will prepare you for what God has in stall for you.  That is when you confirm, truly God was involved and his is faithful.  Most of the time you may wonder the way you have been doing these good all this time but no one has ever recognized you or even given you a pat on your back but you have been frustrated all along.  I will tell you, do not look at things in that line, but focus on God.  Let him deal with you as you seek him and when he shows up, He will rub all your tears.  Humiliation does not come with joy, but so much pain. But do not worry when you see yourself in that situation, know that God is preparing something big for you and he is just preparing it for you in your pain so that you surrender and submit to him because all glory and honour is usually His.  If he just grants it to you just like that without you enduring, you might think it was your making while it was His.  The pain is usually a way to show you that you are still under his mercies and you should never seek for help from anywhere else but from Him.  Remember He is a jealous God too and He needs you wholly!  I am not saying all blessing come with humiliation.  No!  What I am emphasizing here is that most of the time the blessing that comes after you have gone through a lot of pain, you are likely to remember them because they are usually answers to prayers during our pains and agony period.  But when we just get the blessing so easily, most of the time we take them for granted and you will find out that we rarely share that blessing.   This gives me a lot of hope in that the Lord is dealing with me in my pain and at the same time he has a lot in store for me and I should trust on him at all times.  Things might not go straight like am talking here, you will face so many tribulations but I am being encouraged that after the tribulations, I will be taken to my next level with my reward that was never awarded the time I thought it was to be. 

I am very happy to write this script because I have realized that the Lord has totally healed me and I should now wait for his blessings at his own time.  When the King read all what Mordecai had done, he asked, was this man ever rewarded for this good thing he did about me really?  This person needs to be rewarded and he had to call the person who was put in charge of Mordecai.  Guess what, that person was Haman who had just come from the King to tell him that the place to hang Mordecai was ready and he needed the next instructions.  Gosh! Remember God will use the same person who is humiliating you to lift you and also Glorify Himself.  We are not told what was the answer to from the King to Haman about hanging Mordecai, but I am amazed when the King was told Mordecai had never been awarded by the attendants, he felt he would reward this person and called Haman not knowing what was in the King’s mind, for him to recommend what someone who had done good would be awarded.  Haman rewarded this person thinking it was him that the king had in mind and guess what, he gave his best recommendation and he was shocked when the King told him to go and do exactly do that to Mordecai as a way of rewarding him.  He had to do that with a lot of pain and humiliation and that’s is why after he finished doing what the king ordered him to do to Mordecai he had to share it with his wife and his friends because it was very humiliating.  When God is dealing with you, he will not incorporate others but deal with you alone.  Their advice could not reach anywhere because he was picked very fast and taken to dine with and the King not knowing what was ahead of him.  God had heard Mordecai’s cry and was working it out through the King and Esther the queen.  

Let me tell you my dear brother and sister, do not worry at what the devil has been plotting against you.  Remember you are on Gods side and do not be shaken.  Serve your God where you are, with your issues knowing that he will work them out for you but never go out of his Will /Umbrella.  You better solve your issues while you are in Christ than when you are out there without Christ. Most of us that claim to love the Lord we fall many times, but because of his mercies he will always forgive us and give us another chance and bless us.  The most important thing is to accept Christ as your Personal Saviour and the rest will come in place as you continue growing in Him. Remember God knows you in and outside.  He knows when you will be down and when you will be up.  The thing here is that you are in his territory and he will never leave you nor forsake you.  When I read this two chapters I did not plan to read them today, nor did I know my Pastor would post on in his wall I read it.  But it has really ministered to my Heart and I am excited to share this story with you.  Esther was asked by the King what was her petition.  I guess, for the King to realize that Queen Esther had an issue and she would address it during the party, must have been a deep thing that the King had thought over and over about his queen and he had to usher her with her wishes because he loved her that much.  I also guess, Queen Esther had played her cards cool to be honoured by King with a dinner party.  This was very timely because God was in the whole idea to save Mordecai’s life.  Mordecai did not know what was happening behind the curtains but God was working miracle wonders for him through the King and the Queen.  And Queen Esther told the King, Esther 7:3  “if I have found favour with you, O king, and if it pleases your majesty, grant me my life-this is my petition.  And spare my people –this is my request.”  You can read the entire chapter but I am just excited after she brought her petition to the King, the King was mad and he could not believe what was going on with Haman.  It is important to note that, most of the time some people can be placed on high places and use those flat forms to hurt others and not to bless.  The King could not imagine all what Haman was doing or even if he knew he had to listen to those he believed and trusted in order to take action.  In this case he believed what Esther told him and he also used the book of Chronicles to grant justice.    Actually I guess when he went back to the palace he realized no wonder Haman was doing this and that, no wonder he wanted Mordecai hanged, you mean he is this kind of a person?  And to make the matters worse when he came back and found him clinging over the queen as he was pleading with her for his life, the king mistook that still to molesting the queen in his eyes and got angrier and ordered him to be hanged on the same Gallow that he wanted Mordecai to be hanged. 

My friend, this story has really encouraged me so much.    You may not be going through what Mordecai and his people were going through, but we all have issues and we wonder day in day out what is all this?   I will encourage you and tell you, do not worry God is in control. 

Earlier I had talked about a call I got immediately I was reading the word and the Lord answered my distress that disturbed me for some time.  This is about a close person to me who wanted to do something for my son and I wondered if this person really wanted to help me.  And if he wanted to help me, why was he not involving himself so that I see truly he is interested in helping my son.  I rebelled and told God, if this is from you Lord, show yourself real.  In the morning before I did anything, the thought had come and I was accusing the person in my thinking and I was saying he is not serious.  If he was serious he would do one or two things to address the issue about my son. Guess what, when I read the word about how the king did not sleep during that time of Mordecai and Esther, I guessed that, God did not also allow this person to sleep by engaging him to come up with a solution to convince me of what he was saying about my son, and also him confirming to me that all these is from god since he told me he was being ordered by God to do it and that is why he is doing it.  Immediately I woke up from my I ignorance and did all what I was meant to do and so far I have seen the breakthrough because all the people I was meant to call in relation to this issue have consented and now the plans are now underway!

 

We all have issues that bother us, but the best person to answer us is God through his Word.  You might not read the Bible the way with think Pastors do, but I will encourage you and tell you, reading the Word is not meant for pastors.  It is meant for all of us.  Pastors have been put there to be help us by guiding and Sheppard us.  I thank God I read what my pastor had written on his wall because the Lord has spoken to me so profound from what he shared and I also claimed the same favour and I can see truly it flowed to me.

What is your take?  God speaks in so many ways.  He can speak through his Word, his servants, environment, persons, e.t.c.  Can you be alert in the spirit so that he can minister to you?  May the Lord today open your eyes that you may see his wonderful things and enjoy the fruit of his fellowship.  Psalms 119:18  “Open my eyes that I may see wonderful things in your law”. Amen!