Sometimes
listening to the voice of God is usually very hard. Some instructions he gives us they look so weird
and we wonder if that was truly God speaking or someone else. In the recent past I have been desiring to
know God more and to go deeper with His things than I was doing before. I thank God I am winning some of my battles
that have hindered me go to my next level.
I have been stagnant for long and that has always disturbed me. But from my storms, I always learn one or two
things about what God wants me to do from that storm. My latest storm has made me learn that I
should always depend on God always or fully. He has also taught me to learn to
be patient and wait for him to do his will.
This has not been very easy with me because of lack of patience!
Where
do you place your God? Do you just
remember him when you are in need? But when you are enjoying yourself you forget
the same God who has been fighting your battles and thus that is why you are
enjoying your life? You hear others
complaining and murmuring how things are not going well on their side and you
wonder which God do they pray? Thank God
that you are doing that well and you are really enjoying yourself, but I hope
down deep down your Heart you fully depend on God so that when the storm comes
and you lack the peace and joy you are enjoying you will be able to overcome
because a time will come when you will face a storm that will shake you to
remind you that you fully belong to God and you will always depend on him. I am not scaring anyone here but I am trying
to encourage myself that storms will never seize to be, but I will always
overcome them if I will be with my Lord.
When you are alone or when he is far away the storm seems to be too big
to handle because of where we place our God.
Why
am I saying this? Last week, I was
called to play a part in something that a friend of mine was trusting God for. To be honest I also heard God and I really
put all my efforts in all manner to see the person succeed not putting aside money input. And I remember I kept on praying and seeing
this thing coming out positively and all will be well with us all who were
involved.
It
was not a very easy thing to do especially with people of our caliber, but we
really worked hard all of us to make this thing work out for us because if it
did, things would have turned around for us and the world would have been left
agape! But guess what, things did not
turn our way and our hearts sank. But
something funny even as our hearts sunk, we did not believe that things have
not gone our way. It was hard, bearing in mind we had
really done all what it took to get it and my friend missed it just because of
something that the panelist did not know about him but just judged without consulting him for clarification. They took it to be a lie and they did not even want explanation for the
clarification but rather shunned him and put him off just like a pauper and little do they
know that he is a child of God and God will work it out for him. It was not an easy take to have lost but we know, it is not over with us.
God has a better thing for us and we will focus on him and not what we
have lost.
In
the course of my asking what went wrong, I wondered, God! what didn’t we do
right? What did we do wrong? But I have kept on telling myself that I
should always depend on him not on the things I really want to go my way. I have realized God will allow us not to get
what we really want even when we have sacrificed a lot to achieve it. He will allow us to go through out the pain
of losing it so that we can focus on him.
In this sense, we should love our God at all times, when we get what we
really want and when we fail to get it.
This is very challenging because as human beings, most of time when we do not get it,
we start blaming God, telling him that he does not really love us, pitying
ourselves and seeing as if God has a grudge with us. NO!
God wants you to depend on him.
He has a better thing for you than what you are running for. Remember it is only God who knows everything. Us, we get to know when we face it or see it. That is us because we are human. If we knew when we grow up and go to school
get our masters and still be at home with no job, you will never go to that
school, after all, all that will go to a waste because you know you will not
have a job. That is why we all struggle
but we do not know the end of it all but God knows. It is through this entire journey we
understand so many things and we are made stronger with the storms that we face
in order to move on and be what the Lord wants us to be.
In
my case that I referred here, we, all lost and not little loss because it was
something so special to us all because we knew, if he went through all of us would be celebrating. But still even in our loss, we will always
trust our Lord. I know I might be sounding very simple with this
statement because as you read you are saying, ‘Rose you do not know what you
are talking about. Mine is a very bad
story and I wish you understand'. I
will tell you, God will never allow you to go through something that he knows
you cannot overcome. You might fail to that temptation and feel like this is it and you do
not know how you will start all over again to be where you are and I will tell
you, God will give you the Grace. Do not
give up. Just wake up and dust yourself
and give yourself courage you will start all over again. You might be on your 15th breakup
story as in you have lost 15 very good opportunities to get married, and you
are not clocking 12 years but you are heading to your 40 years and above, with
children out of wedlock and so forth and on, I will still tell you do not give up! You are this girl you have wasted yourself
all this time and you are wondering on earth who is this man who will just
understand me and take me in and give me another chance and I will prove to
them that I am changed and different?
You are this guy who as gone on hurting women all over and you now want
to settle down and you are asking can God really forgive me and give me this
beautiful woman to be my wife and I live happy ever after? There are so many questions that we are
asking ourselves and I am not an exceptional.
I will encourage you and tell you, depend on God and you will not go
wrong.
You
are born again and failed not once not twice and you are wondering how can I
reach to that level? I will tell you put
pride aside and repent and tell God to help you once again and start it all
over again. Love on him and ask him to
direct you. Tell him you now understand
where you went wrong and you are ready to correct that and move on. That is the best place to be and now look for
trusted friends who can walk with you because you can’t be accountable to
yourself, you need others to watch over you and let them walk with you. I mean
you should look for trusted friends who love God and they will not judge you
but walk with you.
My
take today is to thank God for all what has failed on my side and continue trusting in him
and not to give up. I am waiting for my
miracle because I know God has placed something good for me, it’s just a matter
of time which is always his that I should wait. What I am crying for now is to have peace and
patience because these are the things I lack most of the time when I really
want something and I know He is faithful he will grant me the desires of my
heart if I depend on him and trust him fully. When the time comes, he will have worked out my impatience!
God
bless you and be encouraged and know that God is there and He knows you just
the way you are!
Love
you all! Amen!
