Today I am really excited because of what the Holy Spirit is revealing to me in my day to day life. I am not talking like this because I am so holy or my life is so smooth, I am talking to you as someone who has weaknesses but has chosen to walk beyond my weakness and look unto my Jesus who started this beautiful thing in my life. As I have usually said I got saved when I was a form two student but that time I did not know exactly what I was doing but true, that is when I got saved but I have been having issues, that I can’t tell exactly how many times I have gone back to be prayed the a prayer of salvation because of my falling.
The last time I said I will not do this
prayer again is when Pastor Ken Kiminywe of NPC Valley Road prayed for me the
last prayer and said “many of you have been saved several times
and they have always found themselves making this prayer again and again simply
because they fall in sin. For you today
that I am praying for, I want you to note this day and from today this is the
day you will start saying you got saved just for record purposes”. Well, in real sense I was saved when I was in
form two in the year 1991 but I can’t tell the date and since that time i did
not have a personal relationship with Christ until this day when i lastly made
this prayer now deep from my heart knowing exactly what i was doing and that is
on 28th February 2010. I was really determined to settle at NPC
Valley Road, but the Lord through a friend who invited me to Mavuno Church
wanted me to be in Mavuno Church because after I visited that church I found
what I was looking for in terms of my personal growth was there, and that is a
ground that will help me understand my purpose and growth in the things of God
that he has already started doing in my life. That is why I am even able
to write all this through the experience i have had since i joined the family
and the growth that am in. I am not
saying this to portray that NPC was not a church for my growth. No!
I just want to put it right here today for those who know me and those who do
not know me, that i felt more home at Mavuno and i had no any other intention
to leave NPC. I love NPC Valley Road and i have many friends there that i
fellowship with. I am putting this right because most people when the
meet me they ask where did you go simply because i did not make it public about
where i fellowship currently. This being a by the way just to put it
clear where i fellowship, i wish to share with you about what the Holy Spirit
has been ministering to me.
Why tell you all this about the day i
got saved! I am saying all this because
most of the time us believers struggle when we got saved and the date
especially when we hear others saying, I got saved when I was 7, 9, 10, 40 and
so forth and you wonder!, when did you really get saved because today I you are
saved and tomorrow you have fallen (backslide). Acknowledging that you always feel that you cant even quote the day you
first received Christ because of your ups and downs, I will just tell you to remember that first
time you accepted Christ even if you cant remember the day, month, time should not bother you like it did to me but make this prayer after me and give your life
a fresh to the Lord and say from this day, 30th
March 2012 is the day you got saved and start a fellowship with Christ just
as i did on 29th February 2010 and start a fresh. You will be happy and enjoy the life I am
enjoying with Christ today, not because I got saved when I was in form two but
when I realized that, I ought to have a
personal walk with Christ and know him more and deeper not because I am perfect
but because I am a sinner and he became my sin, that is why I should not
walk in guilt and stagnate in my salvation anymore because God wants to use you
and me just the way we are as he continues to make you us whole and blameless
like him.
Gosh! I have really written a lot on
salvation though that was not really my point, i still feel happy and grateful
to my God because all what I am writing is coming from the Lord through the
guidance of the Holy Spirit. When you
make this prayer, that I will guide you in, please do not just keep it to
yourself just call me on this number 0721705788 I will pray and walk with you
so that the Lord will open your eyes to see the wonderful things in his law and
make your life with Christ a sweet journey.
Even if you will not contact me, look for a church that speaks about the
good news of the Lord and preach Jesus. Introduce yourself to them have a
fellowship with them so that you will grow in your salvation. Do not walk
alone you need a family to walk with you.
It does not matter where you are, a
prostitute, a robber, an adulterer fornicator, a liar, name it all that makes
you not have a personal relationship with Christ just because the devil
whispers to you daily that you are good for nothing. Say after me “Lord Jesus, I come to you just the way I am, please forgive me all my
sins and wash me with your blood. Make
my life a new and start from today with me and reveal to me all what you have
in store for me so that I may know you more and more. Write my name in the book of life and make me
your child from this day forward, in Jesus Holy Name I do pray and believe.”
If you have said that prayer, believe
from today that the Lord has set you free and you are no longer the same and
you are starting a new life with Christ Jesus. Not that you will not sin again,
but you will sin because you were born in the sinful nature, but he died
for your sins 2000 years ago so you do not need to walk in guilt because he did
it once and for all. He wants to change you and shape you to be the vessel he
wants to make use of, in his
kingdom. Remember, (2nd Corinthians 5:21 God made him who had no sin
to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God). Salvation is not about what you are able to
do and say as a saved person but what the Lord has enabled you to become. Remember, you did not call yourself he called
you. You did not love him, but he loved
you first and that is why he made you his child. Your life was planned even before you were in
your mother’s womb and he knows you in and outside. It does not matter the picture that we see
you with, God is the one who knows the real you, that is what you will do and
what you will not do.
As i was reading my daily verses i was
excited about 2nd Corinthians 5:21 because it is conforming with what i am
sharing today. One would ask, you mean no one is righteous? I will say yes! No one is perfect but
through Christ we are made perfect. Remember if God is to separate you
and the entity of Christ He can never look at you because you are a sinful
creature, but through his Son Jesus Christ he identifies with you, that you are
his righteousness because you are covered by Jesus through acceptance that He
is the Son of God and through Him you will see God.
I have always watched myself in my walk
with Christ and have found myself doing things that I see others do in terms of
sin. I have had struggles with
something/issues in my life and I find myself repeating things that I have
always sworn not to repeat in regard to what I call “sin”. But the Lord is reminding me that what he
hates in me is the sin and not myself because he bought me with a price and
that is the blood of the lamb that makes me whole and clean in his presence
daily. And thus he wants me to
acknowledge that I was born in sin and in the nature of sin but I am not subject
to what that sin but to Him. He is my
everything despite my weakness because he knows me and he cares about me and
not my weaknesses because he finished it long time ago when he became the sin. Well, I am talking today to believers and
many of us who feel we are righteous because we think we walk blameless because
of our own making but forget it is God who enables us walk in holiness and not
ourselves. I am saying this because most
of the time as believers there are issues we struggle with but the Lord is
enabling us to overcome them day by day because salvation is a process. Most of the time those who do not find
themselves falling like others tend to think they are better placed than others
and will always carry themselves as though they are so holy and sin can never
reach them. Just because God has helped
you not to be a prostitute, a thief, a robber name it them you should not brag
or think you are better. Thank God that he has enabled you to live a holy
life.
I am talking like this because there
are “sins” I am struggling with as a believer and every time I want to serve
God I feel so guilty that I can’t serve God because of my struggles. But the Lord has been showing me through the
Holy Spirit that, he is not using me because I am perfect, he is using me
because I am imperfect but it is through the imperfectness that I am able to
know that He is Lord over my life.
Actually being able to pin out that this is a struggle that I have and I
need to surrender to him, is a very clear picture that I want to get rid of the
sins in my life but until he deals with it in me for his glory and set me free
from it, after acknowledging they are sins (whatever you have in mind), then I will wait for long. The secret here is to accept that you have
weakness and present them to the Lord daily and remind him that you do not want
it you want to be holy and he will release you from it. At the end of it
all because he will have enabled you, you will give it as a testimony to others
to show how God enabled you and encourage others but do not hide your weakness
or brag about your holy walk. This clearly indicates to me that, I
do not need to dwell in guilt but surrender all in me that I feel is not right
and accept i am a sinner. Not to sit down and give the devil the
chance to pin me down and use me for his Kingdom whereas Christ brought me in
this world for a purpose. God has control over my life and I am not
enjoying life or having struggles because I prayed or I did not pray but
because He has my life in His hands and he uses me just as I am. I may suffer, yes, but Christ also suffered
and that is why I share in his suffering because I suffer for him to preach the
good news to all in my suffering too and not because of what i am but who he is
in me. (Philippians
1:29 For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe in
him, but also to suffer for him).
When I write this I will tell you I had
just committed a sin that i will not share with you here because i do not want
to be judged by anybody but this is something i have taken to the Lord and
asked him to forgive me about and to help me out in my daily walk with
him. What are you struggling with?
Do you go pin pointing others sins instead of accepting you have
struggles with some sins and you go hiding them to the Lord and thus he knows
them all? I have asked God to forgive me
and help me overcome, what about you?
Are you hiding it and not sharing about it and pray about it so that the
Lord can deliver you? Please do not sit
down and pity yourself and live in guilt, ask of the Lord to help you. I know you may want to know exactly what is
that am calling sin. To you, you may put
it as whatever sin it is but that is what you think but my God knows my sins
that I struggle with and I have surrendered them all to him to help me overcome
them. It might not take a day, months or
whatever time to overcome them, but one thing I know I will overcome in Jesus
Name.
I will give an illustration on how
sometime how people judge you for what they see and not what they know about
you. Have you had such a situation? I know I do not need to
elaborate on this because this usually happens to nearly every person. But I have
always asked myself, why do people do this and I realized in
one way or another I judge people through their appearance, what they said, how
they talk and so forth, until I have a fellowship with them then I realize they
are totally different from what I thought about them. So
why did God create both sin and good? I
say he created them both for his purpose whether we are in his kingdom or
not. You may be sinning so deeply and the Lord uses you so mightily and
wonder Gosh and how come God can still speak and use me even when I am not
worthy? This is simply because he is
using the bad in you for his glory and not yours and when that period is over
you will see how much he loves you unconditionally and appreciate this love that
He cares for you that is why he had to let his son Jesus to die for us.
Usually when you win your battles even
in the midst of your weakness, God provides this opportunity so that you give
hope to all those who are struggling in order to encourage them and help them
share what they go through even if it looks ugly like what. Imagine a man of God like David and God could
use him that mightily with all those weaknesses. That is a clear indication that God does not look
at our weaknesses but looks at our heart.
What I am trying to say here is this, you will walk all this round world
looking for a perfect person you will never find them. Because when you see a pastor you will see
the flaws they have and you will just say, but I thought he is a Pastor! I thought she is a pastors Wife! I thought she is a Pastors Child, I thought
he is a Prophet! an Apostle! a teacher of the Word and the list is
endless. I will tell you do not look at
the titles and what they are not supposed to do because they are as human as
you and look at yourself and the walk you have with Christ.
I will tell you, stop going round
churches, seeking new friends, changing jobs here and there, marrying this
woman leaving for the other thinking they are better positioned in the way they
handle things. You think you will find angels
around and yet you are not one. Work on
your own salvation with fear and trembling knowing it is about you and
God.
Let us stop judging others whether you
know them or not. Look at yourself leave
others to be judged by God and to be dealt with by God. You will never change anyone in this world
but preach to them the good news and be an example to them the way the Lord is
leading you and they will borrow a leave from you to be used of God. Where you have a weakness, work on it, accept
you have it and deal with it and the Lord will help you and make you whole. I am not trying to say we will not look at
people and create a picture about who they are, but what I am trying to say ask
of the Lord what do you see about that person.
If there is a way you can come in and help them in brotherly love, then
help them but do not tarnishing their names and creating a bad image about
them.
You may say, and Rose you are so
spiritual and I will tell you I am because what the Holy Spirit has been revealing
to me even on my own personal matters I would wish everyone would invite the
holy spirit to speak and direct them they will understand all what I am
enjoying in the world of the Holy Spirit.
You may call me weird because every time you hear me talk you will
always hear me say I was shown, I was told, the spirit told me and so on and so
forth and wonder! But I will say, I have
given my life to the Lord to make use of me in all ways and he has enabled me
understand who I am and those who are around me through the Holy Spirit and it
feels sweet because I do not need a witch doctor to tell me what I am seeing,
but the Holy Spirit who the Lord promised he will send and he will not leave us
alone of which I acknowledge and confess that He is real and He will guide us
through all what we cannot understand.
I am excited to be in Jesus Christ
because life with Christ is so sweet than ever.
When I read (Psalms
73:25-26 Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is
the strength of my heart and my portion for ever) I was asking did
David really know what he was saying that nothing that he loves in this world
like the Lord when I really understand all what he had in terms of wealth,
women and the might God gave him and dares to say nothing he desires but God
who created him and he desires more of him and nothing of this world pleases
him, I understand him and I now know why nothing in this world pleases me but
God alone because things of this world will pass by but I will go to be with
my Father one day and all these things of this world will be of no worth but
only God. My prayer is that he prepares
me to be the bride he wants me to be so that when I reach heaven I will enjoy
my eternity with him. Are you praying
the same prayer that I am praying?
Please do not depend on your own, depend on God who is the creator of
the Universe and You! Then you will
appreciate when David says Psalms
73: 27-28 that Those who are far from you will perish; you destroy all who are
unfaithful to you. But as for me, It is
good to be near God. I have made the
sovereign Lord my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds! As I wind up with those verses it is my prayer
that I will be able to encourage many in the Kingdom of God because of the things
I have seen God do in my life and my friends life for the glory and honour of
God.
God bless you and keep you as we
continue with our journey. It is not
easy but God will enable us through Christ who strengthens us and NOT OUR
WEAKNESSES!
